Putting Life Into Life
PART
2
2. Stage Two: The Witness
After this first stage of what is rightly called conscious action there
is a higher stage for those who have considerable experience: this is
the awareness "I am not doing it."
Begin to relax the idea: "I am doing it." At first when you try this the
action will simply stop. Set it going again by a movement of the will
and when it is once more in full swing again begin to drop the idea that
you are doing it. After a number of false starts, you will suddenly
become aware that the brush is moving of itself. The brush moves slowly
at first and then picks up speed and energy. After quite some practice
you will find that the strokes of the brush are much more energetic and
precise: "It" is making them. This is followed by an invigoration and
enlivening of the whole body mind complex.
Aspirants should realise that the first little successes are nearly
always attributed to the individual himself or herself. Individuality
springs up again and reactivates the sense of agency. Experienced
teachers say that it is only an inner reverence that can keep the
consciousness in the calmness of non-ego.
Hints can be recognised in all the great spiritual traditions but
sometimes it is only hints that seem to have survived at least for the
general public. The ancient Christian saying
Laborare
Est Orare, Work is Prayer is
an example. It says enough to get you interested, but not enough to tell
you just what to do.
The practice will not always be successful but if it is made a constant
aspiration the round can become deeply interesting and finally a source
of inspiration and calm.
3.
Fixed Responses to Changing Stimuli
The attempts for some time should be made in a relatively static
environment as described above, just as the first attempts at swimming
have to be made in calm water. But the next step is to practice in an
environment that has limited changes. There are everyday examples in the
office.
Take the case of simple copy typing. The eye is racing ahead to the new
words, which have to be transmitted to the fingers. The fuzz of mental
background is to be reduced to a minimum: expert typists will tell you
that to become interested in what one is typing produces a mass of
thoughts that check the speed. When side-thoughts have been reduced to a
minimum the speed increases, and when the final side-thought "I am
typing" dies away, the speeds are greater than consciously obtainable by
that typist.
Note carefully that this is quite different from the so called automatic
typing of a seasoned typist where the fingers do indeed seem to work
almost by themselves, but the head is seething with thoughts of
holidays, quarrels, hopes and fears.
This form of copy-typing or typing from a tape with a foot pedal is still
controlled by the typist. But the next step is typing to dictation. The
dictator may be more or less considerate, and the typist is not in
control.
This leads into the next situation: the shorthand writer. In the early
months or years of shorthand, the check comes in constructing the
appropriate outline and then writing it, but at the higher levels - say
150 words a minute and over
- the outlines of nearly all the words are familiar. The check comes
when trying to respond instantly to each new word. Here again when
side-thoughts are abandoned the speeds markedly increase: the pen seems
to run of itself.
4. Creative Response to New Stimuli.
The situation appears in miniature in high-speed sports and games where
there is a wide range of techniques. In the first years an opponent's
moves are countered more or less mechanically with some learned reaction
but in the higher levels there is scope for creative responses. Here
again note carefully that this is quite different from prepared tricks,
which are not in fact creative. In the higher levels of Budo in Japan
such as the real Judo without the artificial restraints imposed by the
contest rules, there can be cultivation of instant creative response.
This can only come about when the Judo-man gives up thoughts of how he
intends to win and how he intends to counter the opponent's special
attacks (if he knows about them). The mind has to be as calm as a lake;
the saying is that it is in still water that the moon is reflected.
5. Putting Life into Life.
From the above it can be seen that in what are thought of as chores or
boring tasks we can search for and find a new form of inspiration. The
word inspiration is often mixed up with ideas of excitement and
enthusiasm, but the yogi inspiration arises and remains in calm.
In the Zen School there is much less emphasis on study, and corresponding
more scope is given for what is called the daily life practice, of which
the carrying out of small daily tasks is a central part. But the inner
training through such tasks is very much the same. No part of life is
left uninteresting and sterile. From outside these things may look very
ordinary; but this is no ordinary ordinariness.
As a great Zen master said, the Zen man may live an ordinary life to
outward appearances. What then is the difference between him and the
ordinary man, also leading an ordinary life to all appearances? The
difference is this: the ordinary man is not at peace in his ordinary
life whereas the Zen man in his ordinariness is at peace, and is a full
embodiment of the great life that sustains the universe.